Two weeks ago feels like a lifetime ago. Time doesn’t seem to work the same way when you’re on trail. I’m usually able to keep track of what day of the week it is, but the days feel like weeks, and the weeks feel like months. I’m typically on my feet from 7am to 6pm, with a few breaks here and there. Every footstep and every breath is intentional and I’ve got little to distract me from my thoughts throughout the day, so the days never really “slip away” like they do back home when I’m working or in my house. For that reason, every day, every hour, every minute, and every second has that much more meaning and weight.
Two weeks ago, I was at mile marker 318. I had just made the decision to leave the group I had been hiking with for the previous week and a half or so. I was out on my own again and had set my mind on staying solo and taking the time to “soak it all in” and spend a bit more time and thought on the scenery and life along the trail. As much as I enjoy hiking with good company, I also find it distracting. It’s easy to get lost in conversation and to lose focus on the world around you when other humans are present. Conversations quickly shift away from the present and into the past and the future and suddenly you’re not even in the wilderness anymore. Your body is on autopilot and your mind is a million miles away – something I’d really like to avoid when “nature soaking.”
One of my earlier trail friends had once said “I’m not out here to tour every gas station in Southern California” and that really stuck with me. I often need to remind myself to redirect my attention from how far I am from the next town or resupply and to focus instead on the trail in front of me and all the beauty presented by its surrounding scenery and wildlife. I’ve honestly found it a lot easier to do this now that I’m (mostly) on my own again. When hiking with a partner, or in a group, it’s easy to get carried away in the what/when/where/how. We’ll spend the day discussing where we’re going, how long it will take, and what we’re going to do when we get there.
I’m not saying I don’t have these thoughts when I’m solo, but I do find that I am a bit more “in the moment” and present with my surroundings. The sounds of birds chirping and lizards shuffling across the trail remind me that I’m not on a highway to the next gas station, but rather a dirt path that intentionally runs through as many wild and scenic places as possible. The PCT could easily be a straight line from border to border, but it isn’t. It was purposefully designed to follow every mountain contour, to pass by every lake and stream, and to lead hikers through every inch of raw, natural beauty imaginable. Why hike 2,653 miles if you aren’t going to soak in every single view along the way?

On day 22, I saw my first horned toad of the trail. He was quite a big guy and my first instinct was to reach forward and pet him with my index finger. Surprisingly, he allowed it and even seemed to encourage it as he didn’t flinch in the slightest as I rubbed his back for about ten seconds. Growing up, we always considered rubbing a horned toads back to be good luck. Although I only rubbed one toad’s back that day, I counted exactly seven on trail before day’s end. Is that double good luck?

Day 22 was also Mother’s Day. Shortly before starting the PCT, I purchased a small urn with my mother’s face on it, so that I could carry her ashes, and her memory, with me all the way to Canada (and beyond). The warmth of the small pendant against my chest has been very comforting to me and has made me feel a bit less alone on my journey. It’s also helped me to remind myself of one of the other reasons that I’m out here to begin with – to grieve.
That day, I felt my mother’s love in every step I took. Every bird that flew by me and every breeze that swept my face reminded me that I am not alone and that I am truly loved. While my mother would probably not have encouraged me to embark on this particular journey, I know that she still would have been my biggest supporter, regardless of how worried she’d have been. I know that her love, even 9 years after her death, will be exactly what allows me to reach my goals on this trail.


I was shocked at just how much life I saw on trail that day. Maybe it was the warmer weather, or maybe it was just me being more present with the trail and my journey, but I was grateful either way. All the lizards, snakes, birds, and flowers were showing off. This section of desert was teeming with life.
After about 25 miles, I had reached the famous PCT McDonald’s at Cajon Pass. One of those destinations that us hikers never stop talking about. I got there around 6pm, expecting to walk into a dining room stuffed with hikers applauding me like you see in YouTube videos, but instead got there only to discover I was the only one who had made that far that particular evening. That night, I was just another smelly hiker and the McDonald’s turned out to be just another gross pit stop along a freeway – another great reminder for me that it’s really what’s in between these iconic trail destinations that’s really important after all.


The next 2 days on trail were a bit more social that originally planned, but they were also very eye opening and meaningful steps in my journey that week.
The morning after leaving Cajon Pass, I came across a baby deer mouse (or maybe a kangaroo mouse) struggling on the side of the trail. Red ants were all over his tail and back, and one was even in his mouth seemingly stinging or gnawing on his tiny pink tongue. The little mouse was squeaking in pain. He was on a bit on an incline and kept rolling onto his back, struggling to keep upright. I felt sick to my stomach. Should I intervene? What do I even do?
I paced around looking for signs of other mice or a den where his mother and family might be waiting for him. I found nothing. After a few minutes, I decided I had to do something. Animals suffer all the time, and although what was happening was completely natural, it just felt wrong. Nobody deserves to die that way.
I moved him down the trail, away from the ant attackers, using two sticks like chopsticks to lift his little body up. I managed to get all of the ants off of his body using my sticks, struggling to pry the angriest ant out from his mouth. He was still squeaking in pain. I realized his eyes weren’t even open. He was too young to be on his own outside of the nest. He’d never make it. I got the ant out eventually and the squeaking stopped. After looking around again for signs of a nest, I resolved to just let the little guy be. I moved him off the trail so he wouldn’t be trampled and into a little rock nook where he’d hopefully be safe from the ants. Maybe his mother will find him or maybe a large bird will take him away as dinner for its family. Either way, he’d suffer a bit less now. I can’t imagine what else I could do for him, so I moved on.

Later that morning, while filling up at a water cache (thank you trail angels!), I met a hiker named Chezwick. Chezwick, as it turns out is a professional thru hiker, an FKT (fastest known time) record holder for several long trails. After chatting for a while, Chezwick revealed his goal of finishing the famed Calendar Year Triple Crown (PCT/AT/CDT) in under 220 days, a mind-blowing feat. For most, the PCT alone can take 5-6 months. Chezwick planned to finish the PCT in around 70 days, leaving another 150 days to finish the other two long trails, back to back.
Somehow, I managed to keep pace with Chezwick the rest of the day. We hiked 23 miles with 5700ft of elevation gain together that day. I was fascinated by his stories of past achievements and failures. Chezwick had really seen and done it all. With eleven years of thru hiking experience, numerous FKT records, and advice and suggestions for every inch of long trail in the US, his dedication to the sport was beyond impressive – but it also reminded me of my own goals.
The whole day I hiked with Chezwick, I saw very little of what was in front of me. Although the day was filled with tiring roadwalks and miles of burn scar from 2024’s Line Fire near Wrightwood, I realized that while hiking with Chezwick I was very distracted. His stories of fame, glory, and loneliness (go figure – hiking 40 miles a day can be a very lonely life!) had me hooked, but also pulled me away from the present. As much as I enjoyed getting to know how someone like Chezwick operates and hearing the inside scoop on the sport side of thru hiking, I think my most important lesson that day was to not let my hike become just that – a race to the finish line. I’m out here to enjoy the wild spaces between borders, not to set records or impress other hikers.


Unfortunately, the roadwalking was not over after my day with Chezwick. The following day, I joined two hikers, Justin and Jamie for an 8mile road walk out of Wrightwood towards Baden Powell. The previous year’s fires had shut down about 20 miles of trail, and our only options were to either hike the roads to and from Wrightwood to get back on trail at mi 374, or get a ride from a local – something I was trying to avoid in order to maintain my “continuous footpath” – more on that later, perhaps.
Fortunately, after that morning’s long walk up a closed highway, we were met with breathtaking views of Baden Powell covered in clouds. The hike up to the summit was steep and tiring, and we saw very little from up top due to aforementioned clouds, but it was an amazing experience.



I enjoyed hiking with a little group again, but I knew it wasn’t meant to be forever and that it wasn’t what I wanted in the long run anyway. The next morning, after a freezing cold night and a fairly late start, I told the boys I’d hike solo that day, but would probably meet them to camp later on.
For the next few days, we did just that. We’d camp and eat together in the evenings, maybe meeting midday at water sources, but not really planning anything in particular. During the day, I hiked alone and did what I wanted. I took my time and soaked in my surroundings.
On day 25, I walked what I call the “Toad Road” – another road walk, but this time to help protect an endangered frog species in the Angeles National Forest. This section of trail may be closed indefinitely at this point, but I’m all for doing my part to aid in conservation efforts. The roadwalk was only about 4 miles this time, so I spent the rest of the day enjoying real trail and some fun forest scenery. I also reached the 400 mile marker!


On day 26, I was stung by a bee while kneeling down at a water source. As I moved further west on trail that week, I was making my way out of the San Gabriel Mountains and back into the desert, so water started getting more and more scarce again. Less water typically means more wildlife at the few and far between sources, and in this case that meant a lot of bees! This was my first time I’ve being stung, and I think it may have been less of a sting and more of an “ouch, I just crushed a bee with my knee and it’s stinger happened to jab me!”
Later on that day, shortly before mile marker 420 (hehe), I stumbled upon some amazing trail magic. Marco, a local angel had set up at a fire station just off the trail and had pizza, snacks, fruit, beer, and weed for PCT hikers. I hung out for an hour or so and got my fill on pizza and fruit while catching up with some hikers I’d been seeing on and off the last few days. Nothing hits the spot like pizza, thanks Marco!


On Day 27, I made my descent down from the mountains toward the small town of Acton, where I had sent a resupply box. After getting water from another spring absolutely swarming with bees, I ran into an absolutely enormous rattlesnake. At this point I had already seen a rattlesnake on trail once before, and had heard tale of dozens from other hikers who I’d been minutes apart from, but this was my closest encounter. Surprisingly, I walked clear past the snake, maybe 6 inches away from its body without even noticing it and it didn’t make a single sound! Maybe I had unknowingly traded in my horned toad good luck at that moment?

After getting down to the highway, I grabbed my package from the nearby KOA and got a quick ride into town, where I stayed the night behind a western-themed restaurant that hosts hikers. (I also got a free meal from a local!)
The next day I took a “nearo” and used the morning to catch up on my last blog post. I eventually hit the trail around 3pm, just as the rain started – yay! The plan was to hike 8 miles or so to Vasquez Rocks, a nearby county park famous for its iconic rocks featured in some old Star Trek movie. Unfortunately, I had been misled into believing I could camp there, so I had to push another 4 miles into the town of Agua Dulce, where my only camping option for the night was at a so called “hikers oasis” aka some Farmer’s backyard where you have to pay $30 to camp next to 50 other noisy hikers!

Overall, week 4 was a very eye opening and insightful week for me on trail. Although I was technically alone again in the sense that I wasn’t part of an established group anymore, I quickly learned that I was never truly alone, what with all of my new animal friends and the love and courage gifted to me from my mother and my sweet Cappy. I was also reminded to focus on my real goals. I’m not out here to walk to every gas station or to get to Canada as fast as possible, I’m here to enjoy every inch of trail along those 2,653 miles.
WEEK 4 TOTALS
Miles Hiked this Week: 141.6 miles
Elevation Gain this Week: 25,643 ft
Total Miles to Date: 455 miles


















































































































